Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Girl's Got Lungs

My little sweet Peapod is one loud little sweet Peapod when she wants to be. And wow has she wanted to practice her loudness recently. She can range from a giggle to a throat crackle laugh to a full blown Mary Poppins "PPPAAAAAAAAHHHHH" laugh all in a split second. You do know what I'm talking about right? I hope so. If not, you should really refresh your childhood days and turn on the classic.


Her laughs are absolutely contagious!



But not only is laughter a strong suit of hers. Within that same split second- Crying. Crying has become a common occurrence for my angel. Not just a little lip quiver cry (which she mastered long ago to pull at my heart strings) but she has found that the thunderous screams from the deep depths below get her some serious attention. I mean the girl can scream bloody murder. My heart breaks a little every time, which by my calculations means that my heart should now be 1/237698472965747947th the size it was prior to September 16th. Most of the time recently, she has been really dealing with her reflux and gas. Gas up and gas out are constant, both again VERY loud. Anyone else have a baby that has dealt with such severe gas pains? And the reflux, while in the morning is totally manageable, at night its a whole other story. Those two or so hours before I give her her nightly dosage, she is one very unhappy camper.



Since being home, I have decided to start getting her on some kind of schedule. I keep hearing about all my friends with babies that already sleep through the night, never cries when learning to be in her new bed, blah blah blah ;) Love you all... but trying to get a baby who doesn't want to sleep on a sleep schedule?... I was not prepared for this. But, thank god for my mom. She has been there 100% helping me establish some kind of pattern for Cheyanne at nights. Even though its not the same every night, its a work in progress that is getting us somewhere. Although my baby still would always much rather eat than sleep, which she has been proving the last few nights by waking up every two hours to nurse. UGH! How are we backtracking? We were at 4 hour stints at night just last week! Now 2? What the? Good thing she is usually easy to get back to sleep, that is until about 5am when she is A.W.A.K.E and ready to talk my ear off. If I can wake myself up enough to appreciate it, I actually really enjoy those moments with her because she is nothing but smiles and babble. Oh only if I could push it a couple hours later. We might be implementing the family rule soon. What family rule? Oh the 7.0.0. rule. No one is allowed out of bed until that clock turns to 7.0.0. That or Aunt T is going to have a really good buddy at 5am when she gets here for Christmas! ;)

But I digress. I've read that Chey is at the age now that I can start working with her to cry it out a little, so that is our goal now. Again, thank god for my mom. I have started with crying it out for 1 minute, then two minutes, then all the way up to ten (all on my own). She hit ten minutes with no end in site this afternoon so I gave in. (I'm a pushover). But with Mom here tonight, we did it. I put her down and she cried. So, mom came in to save me. I sat on the bed while she sat at the bassinet. The baby cried for I don't know how long. Boy did she get angry! I never knew babies could get so angry. But finally after about 20 minutes of serious crying, she started to wear down. With about a minute of sleepy yelps, she finally gave in and called it a night. Now I don't expect for that to be it and for her to sleep like a little angel for now on, but it sure did give me hope. It showed me that she can actually cry it out and that she won't cry for.e.ver. So far, she's still asleep. Granted it has only been an hour. But maybe tonight will be better. And maybe tomorrow night will be even better.

You see how tired she gets.


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And here's a picture from Cyber Monday. I am teaching her well. Shop shop shop.

Saturday, November 27, 2010

Indoor Smiles

Who else is freezing?! I AM I AM! I don't know about you, but I am not ready for the temperature to be dropping like this. It was all of 45 degrees today as a high. Peapod and I coming from the beach just don't have the winter clothes that maybe we should here in Roanoke. We did not even attempt to venture outside. We just enjoyed the day inside together. She was being so cute, I got out the camera to take pictures we'll send to Daddy.









Thursday, November 25, 2010

And my biggest thanks of all!!!

I just heard from the Giant! THANK YOU LORD!!! That was the fastest 3 minute phone call of my life, but oh man am I thankful for it. Here's about how it went...

Ring Ring (while I sit watching Charlie Brown's Thanksgiving).
Hubby calling... I jump up extatic!
"Hello?!"
"Hey! Grab a pen and paper quick. I have three minutes."
Run to kitchen grab first paper I find.
"OK. GO!"
Giant yells out long address as it is very loud in the background with everyone else doing the exact same thing.
I yell/repeat it back to make sure its right.
"That's it. OK."
"How much time do we have?"
"30 seconds."
"OK. How are you? How are things?!"
"I'm good! How are you?"
"I'm great now!"
"OK I've gotta go! I love you! Happy Thanksgiving!"
"Happy Thanksgiving Baby! Love you too."

End of phone call. Phew was that hard! Emotions hit me like a ton of bricks when I hung up the phone. There was so much I wanted to say. So much I want to hear about. But oh am I so thankful for that three minute phone call. My Giant sounded good, amongst the chaos. What a great Thanksgiving surprise.

So, if you would like his mailing address to send him a note or card (which he would love! Any notes of encouragement would be greatly appreciated!), please just email me or comment and I would be happy to send you his address. No packages or presents can be sent, but a note or two would mean the world to him during his time away. You probably won't hear anything back since they keep will be keeping him so busy, but know he will love hearing about the outside world and words of encouragement.

Thankful Thursday

Thank you Lord for my family. Not just because it is Thanksgiving Day, but on every day I am thankful for the strongest, most supportive family I could ever dream of being a part of. I am blessed beyond anything I have ever deserved. I am thankful for supportive parents that rearrange their entire lives to let their daughter and her newborn baby move in and redecorate their beautiful antique themed home in baby swings and spit up rags for a few months. I am thankful for a strong sister that listens to all my fears and concerns no matter how big or small and gives wisdom that only she can give. I am thankful for a brother that keeps life interesting and always finds a way to make me laugh. I am thankful for a daughter that makes me slow down every day in this busy world and concentrate on what really matters in life. And I am more than thankful for a husband that is voluntarily willing to give up the comforts of home and time with his new family to defend our Homeland and provide for his family, no matter how far away we are. This year, I see life through different eyes. This year, I see all that I am blessed with through the eyes of a mother, a military wife, and a proud American. So, thank you family. And thank you to all those who continue to sacrifice the average life to be above average so that I can sit here tonight and hold my baby girl, knowing that I am safe and free.

I would like to share with you a quote by Abraham Lincoln that Barefoot Daydreams reminded me of today on her blog.

“The year that is drawing towards its close, has been filled with the blessings of fruitful fields and healthful skies. To these bounties, which are so constantly enjoyed that we are prone to forget the source from which they come, others have been added, which are of so extraordinary a nature, that they cannot fail to penetrate and soften even the heart which is habitually insensible to the ever watchful providence of Almighty God…

No human counsel hath devised nor hath any mortal hand worked out these great things. They are the gracious gifts of the Most High God, who, while dealing with us in anger for our sins, hath nevertheless remembered mercy.

It has seemed to me fit and proper that they should be solemnly, reverently and gratefully acknowledged as with one heart and voice by the whole American people. I do therefore invite my fellow citizens in every part of the United States, and also those who are at sea and those who are sojourning in foreign lands, to set apart and observe the last Thursday of November next, as a day of Thanksgiving and Praise to our beneficent Father who dwelleth in the Heavens. And I…fervently implore the interposition of the Almighty Hand to heal the wounds of the nation and to restore it as soon as may be consistent with the Divine purposes to the full enjoyment of peace, harmony, tranquillity and Union.”
-Abraham Lincoln


Thank you Kathryn for sharing this.


And I have to share this... because who can resist a cute baby picture? No thanks needed. Your welcome! ;)



Happy Thanksgiving!

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

D Day

We are at the base now waiting for his physical to be done. Actually, he's inside waiting and I'm sitting out in the car with cheyanne waiting on him. Last night was rough. One little person decided to be quite fussy all night so I had another sleeping buddy. She slept great on me, but even with our little tricks, she woke up every time we tried to put her down. I can't blame her though. Everything is changing. For her and for us. New places. New sounds. New tensions. She is so in tune with my emotions and stress levels, even when I try to hide them. The last few days as we've been moving out of our house, we've slept on a blow up mattress in the living room. She has slept right beside us but none of slept very well. I guess last night was no different. Hotel rooms are the worst, especially with a newborn. We tried to start putting her down around 8:30 but boy she wasn't having that. Fussy fussy fussy. Around 11:30 after hours of rocking and feeding and trying everything short of curling up beside her in her carrier, I gave in and snuggled with her the rest of the night. Unfortunately that didn't leave much space for daddy and mommy snuggle time. Sigh. She has learned that all she has to do is smile or laugh at me and I melt, which leads to more awake or getting what she wants time. Oops. I can't help but smile back at her, even if it is one o'clock in the morning. We were up this morning at 4 to be downstairs and ready to head to base at 5:45. I don't think the giant slept at all, but he says he got a little shut eye. I don't believe him. anyways, sorry this is all over the place, but I think you can understand. I am bracing myself for what's to come in the next few hours. How do I say goodbye to the man I love? How will I be able to get through the next two months with what I've been told will be two phone calls less than five minutes long? How will I be able to provide our daughter with the best first Christmas when her daddys not there to partake in it? And most importantly, how do I hold it together in front of him when he leaves so that his heart does not break more than it already is? I'm going to do my best and that is all I can promise. Lordy I already know my three hour drive home will be the longest drive. I keep reminding myself, this is the life we signed up for. It won't be easy but its the best thing for us. The best thing to provide for cheyanne. Please cheyanne just sleep on thelong drive to nana and skippers house. Mommy is going to need a little time to get herself together to be the best mommy and daddy she can be.

Quick update at 11:30pm. I heard from him and he made it safe. I got to talk to him on his bus ride to base until they got to the gate. He sounded positive. Nervous about what to expect on the other side of the gate and very tired fro his long day but good. We actually got to use our new phones "facetalk" feature so I got to see him one last time. Man my husband is one good looking fella. Unfortunately for him, I couldn't hold back the water works which have been nonstop all day. Ugh there goes my keep it strong front. I really hate that his last vision in his head of me will be swollen eyed and red nosed. Beautiful. Ok i am top exhausted from this indescribable day and since cheyanne is asleep, so should I. Goodnight blog. And goodnight my love. See you in my dreams. I'll be praying you through the night to get a good nights sleep. Tomorrow starts a brand new chapter of our life.

Saturday, November 20, 2010

peek a boo



Thursday, November 18, 2010

Looky here Miss two months!

You are growing up WAY too fast! How are you already TWO months old? You amaze every day.

Cheyanne is growing more and more each day. At her two month checkup the other day, we found out exactly how much she HAS been growing. She is now 22 1/4 inches and 10 pounds 13 ounces!! My little chunky monkey has gained 3 1/2 pounds since birth and grown 2 inches. WOW! I knew she had grown, but I had no idea she was past 10lbs already. Still very much in normal range, but I'm still shocked. She still wears a lot of her newborn clothes, but definitely not the footsy ones. She is too long for all newborn outfits with feet. Course she's been that way since day one, so nothing new there. We're in the transition to 0-3 month clothes now. Some of her new favorite things to do are now holding her head up, smiling, giggling, cooing, imitating (tongue sticking out is a new favorite trick of hers), bathing, giving the "stink eye", and staying much more alert. She is still hating tummy time, but we're working on it. I wonder what new thing she'll do tomorrow?! Say Momma?



A little weary of Mr. Bear's intentions

Hi Momma!



Said "stink eye" that can make you feel dumb real quick





Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Let the Countdown Begin

We are officially one week away from being a military family. I haven't discussed this yet because, well, I just wasn't sure what to say. And since I've been oober emotional recently, I decided to keep it hush hush on here until it was 100% a go.

The Giant leaves in a week. Seven days left as a family of three for quite a while. He ships out for Lackland Air Force Base, San Antonio TX on the 23rd where he'll be for at least 2 months with very little communication. Very little as in I've been told to expect a phone call or two, maybe three with good "behavior." From TX, then starts his long training that will last anywhere from 6 months to 2 years all over the country. What a hard holiday season this will be. Our first as our family of three. Lordy, I'm already choking back the waterfall, maybe this will be even shorter than I thought. So, yep. I'm moving home to be with my parents for awhile while we wait on him to finish up. I don't quite know how to prepare mentally for this big change. I've done the only thing I know to do, push it to the back of my mind, until now. Now, everything is a last. Everything we do, we appreciate a little more together. We hold hands a few more times in a day. We stare at Cheyanne a little longer at night together. We sleep a little closer (he is not a snuggler...). He holds Peapod a little tighter. We talk more. I smile at him more.

Its hard. But we have been waiting so long for this to happen, that now it is just too bitter-sweet. Timing sucks, BIG TIME. But, the payoff is so worth it. For him to finally get to start his career, his path in life, is so exciting. I will write every day. He will miss us, but maybe not as much as we will miss him. I am dedicated to taking pictures of Chey every day and sending them to him so he doesn't miss a thing.

This week, we are packing up the house, putting everything in storage, and finishing up all loose ends. My dream is to have everything done by Thursday night, so come Friday, I can turn off my cell phone and all communication and just soak up my family for our last 3 days together.

Because he'll be missing Thanksgiving, I threw a early Thanksgiving going away party on Saturday. We had a fantastic time with friends and family. The Giant needed a party and a chance to relax and say goodbye to our loved ones, and so did I. Since we won't be coming back to the beach to live anytime in forseeable future, it was extra important for both of us. We are blessed with such special people in our lives that love us despite ourselves. We have so much to be thankful for this year. Thank you especially Saia's and Ireland's for coming in from out of town to be with us. Of course, I'm horrible at remembering to take pictures at most events I absolutely mean to so I have very few pictures from the party, but here are the few I have.

Corn pudding! A Thanksgiving staple in my family.


I made chocolate covered pretzels. That rocked if I do say so myself!

the cousins


A flavorful game of cards

The Saias

Somebody was all ready for the party


Yep, we wore her out. I love how she folds her hand when she sleeps

Friday, November 12, 2010

Its beginning to look a lot like Christmas

Is it just me, or does Christmas come faster and faster each year? Stores start decorating the day after Halloween. It seems like Christmas music plays through the mall the day before that! This year, the most important thing for me to pick out is not the gifts but the cards. I love getting cards but I love sending them even more! So now comes the important decision. Which card to send?!

Shutterfly is giving away 50 free holiday cards to bloggers! So if you have a blog my friends, all you need to do is go here to sign up and blog about it! This is one of the the holiday card contenders that we might be sending this year! It just looks so fun and gives an extra picture place for Peapod to have her own spotlight. But, I always struggle with this. Do I send a "mature and sophisticated" card? Or should I send a "fun and cheery card?"

Here's some other Holiday cards I am still thinking about using. We'll see. Aren't they too cute?





Get your free cards if you are a blogger and if you aren't... become one! This means YOU friends and family. You all know I'm always on the search for new blogs to read. Oh, but those on my Christmas card list, please forget you saw this blog post because your holiday card is suppose to be a fun surprise! :)

Thursday, November 11, 2010

The Talker

She has been very talkative today. Finally I capture some good babble on camera! She started at 5am this morning and hasn't stopped yet.

Cheyanne's Birth Story

Birthing Story Version 1 (for any readers that don't want the long detailed account or those that are disturbed by dilation and contraction details)

I was admitted to the hospital on 9/16 at 7:30am. Given pitocin at 8:30am to speed up labor. It worked. After a long day of ridiculous contractions, I pushed for 20 minutes and out came Baby Peapod. Welcome to the world Cheyanne at 6:13pm.


Now, Birthing Story Version 2 (for any readers that want the long gory detailed account)

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Wednesday morning (09.15) at 10am I arrived at my OBGYN's office 39 weeks pregnant to begin the induction process that we had scheduled the week before. When they checked me, I was at 2cm dialated. The doctor inserted a foley bulb to begin induction. The doctor said that I would begin to feel some mild cramps throughout the day and hopefully progress to 3cm by Thursday morning. Within an hour, I started to feel the cramps, which I called cramps until about 2pm at which point I quit speculating and declared them to be contractions. They started out mild, and I could still function just fine during them. That quickly changed. Afternoon turned to faster "cramps" and lots of leaning against the wall to breathe. By the time the Giant got home from work, I was at the point that my "cramps" were timeable. I grabbed his stopwatch and began timing and timing and timing them. They went from 7-8 minutes apart to 5-6 minutes apart. After a few long hours of this I called the doctor. She told me to continue to time them for another hour and if they got closer than 5 minutes apart, it was time to head to the hospital. Of course, my luck, as soon as I got off the phone my contractions slowed to 8-11 minutes apart for the rest of the night! Sigh. Stupid false labor. I slept okay that night, not great but not horrible. We had to be at the hospital at 7:30 Thursday morning so I was up by 5. When I got up, my contractions were rough but were consistently 7 minutes apart. Consistently that is until after my shower, at which point they jumped to 3-4 minutes and stayed there. Let me tell you, I had planned on it taking less than an hour for me to get ready. Let's just double that, inserting unplanned time for contractions and breathing in between said contractions and more of that leaning against the wall thing holding on to anything I could grab (Hubs kept his distance after seeing my grip on the bed post). In between these spurts of firey hell, I was talking and laughing hesistantly. Little did I know at this point that these contractions were NOTHING compared to what was coming ahead!



We got to the hospital early, but not as early as I had wanted. I had preregistered online so I thought I would be able to just head right up to Labor and Delivery like I had been told. Wrong. I had to check in while right in the middle of contractions. So there I was in the middle of pain answering a billion questions that I had already answered online. Ugh. Finally, question session was over and we got upstairs to L&D. Immediately I was set up in my room and checked. I was 4cm dialated already. We all (nurse, Giant, and I) thought- well shoot I'm at 4cm already, this is going to be a quick breeze. She immediately started me on pitocin, the lowest dose just to get things moving faster. Pitocin was something that scared me ahead of time and I had hoped so much I wouldn't have to be on it. Contractions at that point sucked but were manageable. Side note: This would be the point that the Giant started the video camera which I have since watched and reaffirmed that we will not be going down this road again for a while: end side note.





Thirty minutes later, I was checked again and was already at 5cm. The nurse told us "if there is anyone that would absolutely die if they weren't here and missed her birth, you should probably go ahead and call them and tell them to start making their way here". Excitement started to set in at this point, in between contractions.



We called my parents that had stayed the night before at a hotel down the street with my Mamaw and Papaw and told them to head to the hospital. I only needed to hold off until 10:30 for my sister to get in from her San Francisco flight. I was not having this baby before T was there. Cheyanne had waited this long to make her debut in the world, she could wait another hour. That time span seemed to drag on, with my family coming in and out of the room, watching me contract, trying to take my mind off of it. Mom continued to remind me to open my eyes during contractions. "What's your focal point?" said by the woman that had all three children naturally, drug-free. So I listened as much as I could.



Finally T arrived and I was all a go.



Unfortunately my body was not quite ready. The nurse checked me every hour to see how much I progressed. In my mind, things seemed to have slowed down since I had gone from 4 to 5 in 30 minutes. She kept asking me if I wanted any pain meds. Nope. I wanted to go as long as possible by myself without meds. I think I made it to 6 centimeters when finally I asked T what she thought and we agreed I'd try the Stadol for some pain relief. It is a pain relief med administered by IV that is supposed to just take the edge off of contractions. Hmm. Well for me, that's not exactly what it did. It knocked me out. Completely drugged me to a whole other dimension. I could feel every contraction, but it messed with my head so much that I could not tell what was reality and what was not. I almost felt like I was in a heavy dream state not being able to open my eyes or respond but could hear and feel everything going on. This would be another point when the Giant pulled out the video camera and captured the oh-so-lovely shot of my druggily trying to scratch my nose. Has it ever taken you five minutes to get your hand to your nose? Well it has me. The great thing with it though, the next hour and a half flew by. Stadol wore off after an hour and a half or so and I was back to reality. It is at this point I have a very hazy memory of being so nauseas I was gagging to throw up. Stadol and a very empty stomach with severe labor pains apparently don't mix. My sweet husband and sister helped me through holding a bucket and cooling me down with a cold washcloth. I had progressed some, to about 7 1/2 centimeters.



It was roughly then that the nurse told me if I wanted to get the epidural, it was now or never. Looking to my sister for wisdom (which is how most of my day went with decisions), we went for it. I am still a little disappointed in myself for that decision, but I at that point I was just done with the pain that was coming every minute or so. I got the epidural at around 3:30-4pm, which was a pain in and of itself to sit still long enough for it to be inserted. We had to catch it between contractions which were entirely too close. Trying to sit still was like literally fighting mother nature. Once it was in, within about fifteen minutes I felt a little relief. But, my luck, I guess we waited too late for the entire epidural to work because I still felt everything. My lower half never went numb like it was supposed to, only my big right toe which stayed like that for 2 weeks. Weird. The contractions were milder but manageable again. You know how in movies, the woman on an edipural looks at the monitor and says "Is that a contraction? I didn't even feel it." Nope, that was not me. There was no screaming or writhing in pain or cursing up a storm, but I was not looking at that little line on the monitor jump up and saying "Oh hmm I don't feel a thing." By 5:45, I was feeling so much pressure that I started to have a meltdown. I was feeling so much pressure that I felt I was about to pop out a 10 pound baby right then and there. The nurse told me to wait for the doctor to come check me. I think I made it quite clear that that had better be soon because I could not hold off much longer. My doctor came in all smiles, me not so much. She checked and I was at 9 1/2cm. It didn't matter. I was going to be pushing whether they liked it or not. She did some stretching to help me out and get me to 10 and the pushing began.



Husband on one side with a leg, the nurse on the other. Mom and T behind the doctor watching and coaching. Everyone was telling me to do different things. Breathe! PUSH! Counting! UUggh! Through all of the voices, I grabbed on to one, my sister's. I had to make my mind ignore everyone else and only listen to her. Thank God she was there. PUSH. PUSH. PUSH. Breath. Do it again. PUSH. PUSH. PUSH. "Molly do you want to feel her head?" "NO!" PUSH. PUSH. PUSH. On and on it went. Finally. One final push and everyone squeeled but me. Twenty minutes of pushing and out in the world she came at 6:13pm. She was greeted by a multitude of people in my room, some planned, some unplanned. I couldn't see her so all I could do was look at my husband staring at her looking petrified. I knew something was off but I wasn't even in the mindset to put together what.





Now here's the part I am completely getting from what I've been told. Cheyanne came out with the cord wrapped so very tight around her neck that the doctor had to cut her cord off. Her face was blue, which is what caused the petrified look on Hubs' face. She wasn't crying or making any noise for that matter but was very alert. They had called in the NICU right before she was born so they quickly took her once she was out. All I saw was a head full of dark hair as they wisked her to her bed. As they did, they asked what's her name? I saw the dark hair just like her momma and Nana and I knew she was a Faye. So Cheyanne Faye it was. They quickly tended to her in the room in front of everyone.





I told the Giant to go see what was going on. He stayed with her from then on. At this point, my sister must have seen how confused I was because she smiled at me and I instantly knew the baby was going to be okay. A few minutes went by (which seemed like hours) with no sound from her at all. Nothing we could hear at least. The NICU nurse finally said that Cheyanne was wimpering and any noise was good noise. And she was definitely already a good pooper because I was told the nurse was there laughing over the baby that she had to keep wiping her. Good girl! Baby poop is a good thing! They cleaned her off and wrapped her up. I was able to hold her for just a minute when they took her back. I held her long enough to see her, take a few pictures, and off she went. I did not get her back for another 3 hours. Because she was born with the cord wrapped around her, they monitored for an extra long time. Also, she was born with low platelets which caused some alarm. They immediately started her on antibiotics to fight anything she might already be fighting. She had to have an IV put in her right hand, which we lovingly refered to as her "claw" for the next 3 days. She perked up that first night and started to make up for her lack of crying during her first few minutes of life. We are so thankful that God watched over our Peapod and kept her healthy during a potentially scary time. And I am also very thankful that God kept me quite naive to all that was happening to her at the time. I had a peace in those first few minutes that I knew he was keeping her safe. He kept my daughter safe. So all in all, Cheyanne Faye was born at 6:13pm on 9/16 weighing a healthy 7lb 8oz and 20 1/2 inches long and the world will never be the same.






Tuesday, November 9, 2010

Harder than it looks

Here's our one month photoshoot. It did not go quite as smoothly as planned. One of these will work. Now which one?

It started off good...



Then it went down hill for a short while. But at least she was happy! Cracking herself up.








So I tried another approach. But then I realized we lost the bear, which was vital to this whole progression photoshoot thing.

So he came back.

But he didn't cooperate. Mr. Bear, the 1 Month label is important and so is her face.






Then someone got a little bored.


So I think we will stick with the first one.