The Goal

here is to have a healthy baby. That is my one and only goal. I know I have griped and complained about the back aches and rib pains and sleepless nights and the never ending nausea and the bagazillion pee trips I've made in the last eight and a half months and on and on and on, but so there is no confusion, my ultimate concern is to have a healthy baby girl. There have been multiple times when I felt so down and out that I thought I just wanted to disappear and felt like giving up, but I am constantly give myself a pep talk saying, "I can do anything for nine months. Anything." And when its been hard for me to even utter those words, my husband has been there beside me to remind me, "You can do anything for nine months."

Why do I write this now? Perhaps more so as my daily reminder. Insert daily mantra ::I can do anything for nine months::. We had my big ultrasound appointment today at the Maternal Fetal Medicine clinic and let me just say, it was very informative and surprising. Up until yesterday during a slight meltdown (thank you Mom for listening), I have been pretty calm and relaxed about all these current unknowns in our life. Maybe by self-force or maybe by the peace that has come from the abundance of prayers that I know have been lifted up for us.

This hasn't been the easiest pregnancy but nor has it been the worst pregnancy in history either, neither option by a long shot. I have given up comparing my pregnancy to anyone else though at this point because, well lets just face it, it makes me a little depressed to hear about how much some women loved theirs and their pregnant glow and why don't you just stop and puke on me please instead of tell me how many other wonderful things you loved about being pregnant. Not bitter. Please don't be offended if you fit in that category. I still love you. And I really don't want you to puke on me instead. I'm glad not everyone has had the issues I have had. We might have a lot less cutie patootie babies out there right now if you had! And I have no doubt that my Peapod will be worth every ounce of pain and tears I've endured during these nine months.

So back to my MFM appointment today since I know that's really what you care about. Here's the surprise. She's measuring big. Like almost 37 weeks big. That's right, I'm 34 weeks. She's 37. Hmm... does not compute. Up until now, she has been consistantly measuring a week or so behind, my tiny girl. Nope. Apparently not anymore. We're not sure yet if my doc will be moving her EDD up or not, but it is looking that way based on the MFM doc's opinion today. Its sortof confusing so I'm not entirely sure my information is correct, but her head is measuring at 33-34 weeks, but her abdomen and legs are measuring 36-37 weeks. Like her daddy much? She's measuring in something like the 97th percentile. Pretty sure the words "jumbo baby" came out of the sonographer's mouth, but thankfully not in the way my husband is now using itin the middle of laughter. It was more in the lines of "We won't let you go and have a jumbo baby." Lordy, do I really have a mini giant inside me? The fluid levels have raised but I was told not to an extreme. They went from 21.41 to 24, but apparently that is flexible. It is when it gets in the 30s and 40s that the alarms go off and the extremems are taken. They will continue to check the fluids I believe. The doctor today said that Thursday my OB would be talking to me about induction and moving up the EDD dates, etc. I will not even utter the "C" word unless its a last resort- but I'm not getting ahead of myself on this one! So, until then, I don't have any more knowledge on that whole topic. But we do know this. Her kidneys are functioning well, her bladder was full. And her belly was full meaning she is swallowing. All good things! Very good things. Too much fluid is better than not enough.

We did get a picture of her, sorry kiddo, I think you might have my little pig nose. I'll scan the picture tonight and post it for you to see her pretty profile. So, for now that's all I've got on doctor's visit number two of this week. How's your Tuesday going?